Kimberly Peil

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Through Ella’s Eyes

In Uncategorized on November 29, 2010 at 10:17 am

When you have a child Christmas suddenly seems 10 times more exciting.  It is so much fun to experience everything through Ella’s eyes.  Like every time we walk into the Living Room… if the Christmas tree is lit up, her eyes get big and she points and says “ohhh!”  And it doesn’t matter how many times she has seen the tree that day, every time is a new and exciting experience.  And of course, Christmas shopping is more exciting too.  I don’t think I’ve bought children’s toys in well over 15 years… in fact, the last toys were probably for myself!  So my last post was a little depressing, but I have decided to choose to love Christmas.  I am going to enjoy it with the ones I love, and make new memories.  How could I not love it when I see so much joy on my little monkey’s face!

Our Christmas Tree.

My little monkey being her mischievous self 🙂

My first attempt to make a wreath.  I am pretty proud of myself.

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Almost Christmas

In Uncategorized on November 15, 2010 at 9:28 am

I typically do not even think about Christmas until after Thanksgiving is over.  One holiday at a time please!  However, it has been on my mind a lot lately.  It’s always such a roller coaster of emotions for me.  I always love sharing Christmas with Hunter.  And I am very excited to celebrate Ella’s first Christmas this year.  I found a Grinch t-shirt at Old Navy, and decided that she needed it to get into the “holiday spirit.”  I even took her down the Christmas isles at Target last week, and watched her as she pointed at the fake trees and said, “ooohhh!”  I am pretty sure she is going to love it just as much as Hunter.

Christmas was never that wonderful of an experience for me growing up.  Maybe because one of my earliest memories of Christmas is when my Mom had already left, my Dad couldn’t afford presents, and instead the church delivered gifts to our home.  Don’t get me wrong, it was great to get presents, but at 7 years old I kind of understood what was going on and I felt embarrassed.  Then by the next Christmas my Dad had remarried.  I had a few decent Christmas’s over the next 15 years, but most of them ended in horrible fights between my Dad and my Step-Mom.  And even now the dis-functionality of it all continues, and I find myself depressed and frustrated.

I am thankful that I have my own little family now that I can make new memories with.  However, there is still a sting in my heart when I can’t celebrate with my Dad, Brother and Sister like I want to.

I know I haven’t blogged in quite a while… and this is definitely a depressing note to re-start on!  But it’s what’s on my heart and what I feel like sharing at the moment.